Tell me if you can relate with this statement/ feeling
Here I am staring at the clouds wondering:
How did I go from living 30 days a month to living 4 days a month?!
Isn’t freedom the goal?
And what’s the price I need to pay for freedom? Should I grind during my free time to build my side hustle?
Sacrifice the present completely for the hope of a free future? Wouldn’t that change me as a person?
What is the point of it all?
DOOM ROOM | A DRUG WE DON’T KNOW WE ARE ADDICTED TO:
Once we step into the doom room, we are chained to a corner and fed our monthly paycheck to keep us grounded, rotting in a corner for the rest of our lives like chained dog.
Why does everything look small from here? Why do I feel like the life I really want is slipping away from me? Why am I not doing anything about it?
The thing that scares me the most, is the fact that I don’t think I want to leave the doom room eventhough it literally sucks the juices out of my life. What kind of a drug is this?
And even if I did leave, I would be named a loser and a fool by people. Not just any people, but the people I love.
Then the anxiety and the insecurity would set in which would hold us by our throat until we walk back into the doom room
IS THERE A WAY OUT?
I honestly don’t know.
Should I accept the fact that I can only live the way I want to, 4 days a month?
Should I give in ?
Should I sacrifice my present hoping future would be better at the risk of losing myself?
WHAT’S OUTSIDE THE DOOM ROOM?
(This varies from person to person )
Close your eyes, think of any place and a person/ multiple people you want to be with at this moment in time.
You can have it.
Think of something on your to-do list that’s been there forever
You can experience it.
Think of a delicious food you want to eat. Think of an amazing restaurant you want to be in rn.
You can have it. You can be there.
Think of your passion. Something you would do for fun even if no one is paying you money to do so
You can do that! You can feel belonged here!
Think of a way you can contribute to this world. Think of something you want to do to help people
You can actually do that!!
This is what life is supposed to be like. The more sophisticated the society became, we rewrote the definition of “living”
IS THIS THE KEY INGREDIENT OF THE DOOM ROOM DRUG?
Its funny when you think about it. We all train 20 years of our life trying and hoping and praying to become a slave to a company, an idealogy or money. Right?
I sometimes wonder if that’s a need we all have. Or maybe we are programmed to always have a direction, irrespective of where that road might lead us. Right?
Who can relate?
To be a part of something so we won’t feel like we don’t belong.
It’s alright and makes sense until we lose control right? We don’t get to decide what we want to be a part of.
We just jump into the running roller coasters hoping we land a seat. And if we don’t, we jump again.
WHATS THIS OBSESSION?
We belong to this world. We belong with the present. Why is it so hard to stay here? Be mindful?
Why do we always have to be hooked into something? It’s either the work we do or the netflix we watch or the drug we are hooked into. Right?
Do we blame the society? Do we blame ourselves? What’s the point of this blame game anyways?
All I wanna ask is “What have we done?!”